I thought it was supposed to get easier after awhile...but instead its getting harder. I started therapy recently. The counselor told me it would get harder for awhile before it gets easier. Its like re opening a wound. I feel like I can't breathe, its like a panic attack on top of another panic attack. They barely have time to calm down before another one comes on. I hate hate hate the 14th. I hate this day and everything about it. How long until it gets easier? I guess only time will tell. Has anyone reading this gone through grief counseling before? How long did it take before it got easier? Its all at the surface right now, like it just happened yesterday. After to recollect everything all over again makes my stomach turn. I feel sick and dizzy; out of breathe. I hate this.