The dreaded week is here. The week that I didn't want to deal with. The week I wanted to pretend didn't exist. But its here, and its real. Week 31. Baby should weigh almost 4 lbs. Odd, Baby Johnny only weighed 2lbs 4oz and at the last ultrasound baby girl weighed 3lbs 6oz already. Its quite obvious my placenta started to fail earlier than week 31, but no one caught it. What if something happens again and no one catches it? Albeit I am seeing a perinatolgist and a regular OB who both seem to be on top of their game, but it doesn't mean they don't make mistakes. What if they miss something? What if they already have? I can NOT handle another of my babies dying, I can't. The anxiety of this week is weighing down so much on my heart I can barely breathe. Oh God please let this week be over.