Losing It

Baby girl failed the NST so they did a biophysical profile on her and she passed that. We have another ultrasound scheduled for Monday as well as another NST and then another NST for Thursday; but I am still so nervous. I feel like a wreck. I keep trying to hold myself together but I feel like I'm going to lose it at any second. I think I'm becoming really really depressed and that scares me. I try telling SO how I feel but I don't think he really gets it, nor do I want to push all these horrible feelings onto him, he has things he worries about too, I don't want him to have to stress out about me too. I just really hate these feelings.